Текст песни: Outburst004 + перевод

They don’t get me, I don’t get them either

Feel like I don’t fit in anywhere, I don’t feature

Any of the plans and patterns, I can’t keep up

With the in ting or the out ting either

I’m in a class of my own, tryna learn new lessons

With no aids or peers or teacher

Too bad for the good youts, I was too good for the bad ones

I couldn’t really be around either

Time passed, reality coming at me fast

When I couldn’t even get no breather

Tryna get my thoughts together, wanna be better

But my insecurities teamed up

Oldest in my house, youngest in the crew

I had to learn to be a leader

I dived in too fast into a lot of things

It’s the curse of the hungry and eager

I had a big heart in this cruel, small world

Being colder, that made tings easier

Lost love and my bad luck wouldn’t ease up

I was married to the fuckery with no prenup

Couldn’t be no dead beat yout on the ends

Man, I swore to God I wouldn’t be one

Mum and Dad tryna pay these bills

I was more concerned that my creps were greased up

Should’ve been studying, I should’ve been saving

I was on sets, though, tryna get wheel-ups

Kinda went uni, sorta shot food

Done telesales, was a part-time cleaner

Nearly was a wasteman, I could’ve been a father

She wasn’t ready and I wasn’t either

All this time, man, everybody thinks that I’m gone

All 'cause of «When I’m 'Ere» and «Heat Up»

Oi, how wrong they were

How lost I was

I made her love me, then I got scared

Then I locked her off

She said I tried to break her 'cause I was broken

Yeah, I probably was

Look, I tried to be better, I had good intentions

I swear to God

I let things build up and I don’t share

They’re just in my songs

Take on everyone’s issues and ignore my own

I was all on my ones

I was tirelessly trying to find my tribe

'Cause I don’t belong

I was looking for things

That were right there around me, all along

How could I get this so wrong?

Look at all the fuckery that man ah dodged

How could I not know that I was blessed

When all the mandem were getting locked up?

People around me had tings worse

No excuse, I had to fix up

And now it’s all about growth

Can’t go back to who I once was

Cuh grime nearly killed me

And grime saved my life

Grime gave me an in

And grime kept me outside

I don’t ask for acceptance

I only ask for forgiveness

And hope that I grow strong enough

To remain myself at all times

Still don’t give one fuck about ends

Ends never gave no fucks about me

Certain quote unquote friends

Can’t spend time or come around me

And I’m thankful for the ones that I’ve kept

And all my loved ones that I don’t see

I don’t want no fake dons calling me family

My brother and my sister still don’t speak

Holding onto anger ain’t cool

You’ve got to get to know your niece

Don’t let things get too far

She just started walking last week

And to my brudda that’s going through bare tings

I pray that you find your peace

Don’t let all the anger consume you

You won’t be happy, you won’t be free

To all my exes I thought were the ones

I’m happy we met but weren’t meant to be

All the mistakes that we made together

I ain’t gonna do the same with my queen

I had to learn to let things go

Can’t help the things that weren’t meant for me

I can’t spend my time looking back

Cause I miss things that I’m yet to see

To anybody feels that they’re unheard

To everyone who feels that they ain’t seen

Don’t let your big heart get disheartened

Don’t ever discard your dreams

To all my overlooked outsiders

All them talented kings and queens

Don’t let the fact you were once lost

Make you scared to take the lead, believe

Don’t force it

Like, for real

Don’t force it

Don’t try and hang with bad mind people you don’t actually like

Don’t try and business with people that are, like, mad negative and you don’t

even like their energies

See that one person?

That one person that’s always tryna put you down when other people are around

Or make a joke out of your name

Or try and have a joke on your behalf, to feed their ego?

Dust them out

Having no friends isn’t a bad thing, you know?

Being comfortable with your own company isn’t a bad thing

Being an outsider just lets you see inside a little bit clearer

Not speaking too much lets you observe more

And the less you talk, the more people can assume

Some people talk too much

Irony, she says

But for real

People have too much to say

On Twitter, on Instagram, on Facebook, on Snapchat, on Instagram Story

And yes, I’m a hypocrite 'cause I like to give people my opinion

But I’m never giving people my opinion to put other people down, you understand?

Be secure in who you are as person

Walk into a room and be secure with who you are; your energies; your opinion;

your state of mind

That’s who you are

Don’t let other people tarnish it, it’s a waste of time

I promise you that

2017, I had to have a spring clean of all these people that like to be my

acquaintances

If I haven’t rang you in 2017, I don’t business with you no more

I am who I am and that’s my choice, not yours

JGrrey, to us, if you’re nasty